cry??

i don't know why... but it has been a very sad mood for these few weeks... for the first time i felt sad for no particular reason... see tv, all sad dramas... Pondok Buruk, Sesuci Hati Zahra....see movie... Pursuit of Happiness... go karaoke oso sing sad songs!!! hoh... received a buzz from Mel today.. and read her blog http://emeldavincent.blogs.friendster.com/emelda_/ ... she posted a few photos of us (true fitness gang) during our last launch with her and Yili around... made me cry again... not the sobbing cry (he he... this one during sad dramas only), but tears for longing the past.... not good huh? have you ever wondered if you have power like Hiro Nakamura... what would you do with it? change the past? kill somebody? bring somebody back? re-sit your exam?

what will i do?

i will...
1. Loose all my credit cards...
2. Loose my Proton!
3. Loose the losers in my life

he he... and i think that's about it...

thinking of it back, your past, your experience, your memories are the 'ingredients' which produce a better YOU!! it's just no fun if the bitter is more than sweet... but you know what, a little bitter always 'overshadow' thousands of sweets... the sad things keep bugging your heart and mind... we always want to throw this itsy bitsy hard taste away until we forget how 'sweet' makes us feel... if we keep doing that, 'sweet' will fade away.... and on most occasions we'll lost 'sweet' without appreciating what it brought into our life... what?

1. the best mum and dad a person could ever had...
2. the best sister and brother a person could ever had...
3. the most adorable nieces and nephews in the world...
4. Juwita and Azyei

these '4 sweets' are the pillars of my life.... and i'm sure i'm one of theirs too.... we need each other, and the best part, we want each other.... these pillars are the one which 'force' me to put the smile on my face everyday... even when they are not here beside me, their presence is surrounding me, everywhere i go, wherever i go... so friends, find your pillars and hold to it, never let go!!! if it slips, you always have me to hold it for you ;-)