Is it wrong to give up your 'expected' happiness to somebody who deserves it? yes, I want to be happy... but is it worth to have it in other people's expense? Ya Allah.. help me...
I always come to this angle of my life, where I need to make decision whether it's A or B... u know... "ditelan mati bapak, diluah mati mak"
It's not a deep thought yet... but on the surface, looks like I'm going to be a candle again... give light to people even though you are 'eating' yourself up... :D hmmm... maybe I'm destined to be like this (too many incidents, resulted the same).. or it's just me... I don't think I can be happy with only promises and expectations... hope and faith, maybe... but promises and expectations? nahhhhhhhh.......... u have to give me better than that babe.... a definite is, I'm always have this high expectations of myself than I'll will do my very best to achieve it... this 'attitude' makes me have the same expectation to others... you have to cope up with that man... or else... you are not fit to become my partner!! huahuahaua....
sorry my friend... if you can't decide... let me make it easier for you... the decision is mine, let me stand back.... not all the way though.... i'm still a friend... u know where to find me.... ;-)
put all these mushy2 stuff aside... my days after Raya break really worn me out... asthma sessions... tonnes of work... BJ stuff... not forgetting the fattening open houses... but, along the way... i found myself to give time to my ex-colleagues in Sime.. KBT members in Klang... Muay thai friends + the lessons (sakit shin uols....)... last but not least... back-to-back movies with my sistas and Niens... epi birthday dear... May Allah bless you all the way... Aminnn....
I'm very much hoping to have just a session of dinner with my sistas, Ant, Jenn, Marc, Niens and Colin on my Birthday... can ah can ah... :D
thank you. *hugs*
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