October 26, 2009

and that maybe.. all i need to know..

Look at this face
I know the years are showing
Look at this life
I still dont know where its going

I dont know much
But I know I love you
And that may be
All I need to know

Look at these eyes
They never seen what mattered
Look at these dreams
So beaten and so battered

I dont know much
But I know I love you
And that may be
All I need to know

So many questions
Still left unanswered
So much
Ive never broken through

And when I feel you near me
Sometimes I see so clearly
The only truth Ive ever known
Is me and you

Look at this man
So blessed with inspiration
Look at this soul
Still searching for salvation

I dont know much
But I know I love you
And that may be
All I need to know

I DON'T KNOW MUCH by Linda ronstadt featuring aaron neville


p/s: you may puke now... :P

October 21, 2009

sick is not an excuse...

being sick...

is not an excuse to celebrate important days in fren's life...

definitely is not an excuse to eat good stuff while 'outstation-ing'... peanut butter banana with honey sandwich! :D

and of course is not an excuse to re-live my engagement day!!! ahahahahahaaha.....

la la laaaa.....

October 18, 2009

self-centered time!

i'm in Kerteh now... 11.45pm in my room at Awana Kijal... watching Mark Wahlberg movie on Star Movies with Herni... just finished 'touching-up' my presentation for tomorrow and hmmm.... now can't help thinking about alif and I.. ekekekke... :P

how about just me... ahahhahahahaa.....

All the pictures are taken by Natrah.. by our official wedding photographer... ahahhaahah... nice? :D

October 10, 2009

Can't get enough

You have just going to bear with me for these few coming posts ya... it would definitely be evolving around one issue.. MY ENGAGEMENT! ahahahha.....

if engagement makes me feel smiling for almost a week now, I cannot imagine how would i feel if we were married... eheehhh.....

THE ring.. opss.. rings! :D

THE tepak sirih... a 'gift' to my family, from his, representing the 'engagement' between two families...

THE cake! my favourite... :) notice the pearl thingy.. it's all handmade by the fiancee of yours truly...

THE cloth.. for kebaya to be exact.. chosen by Alif's mom.. already sent to Madukara.. hehe...

last but not least... THE chocolate.. Patchi! :D

For your info.. my fiancee did all those hantaran by himself... he said, he made it dengan penuh kasih sayang (with lots of love...)

And yes dear... I love you lots too!

p/s: can you feel the happiness from US? *wink*

October 5, 2009

As promised!

:) :) :) i'm verrrrrrryyyyyyyy happppppyyyyyyyyy...........


Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku... SemogaMu rahmati perhubungan ini dan menyambung harapan kami untuk ke peringkat seterusnya...

October 1, 2009

Awaited Saturday..

can't wait.. can't wait...

i'm all packed... i'm prepared mentally.. hehe... my heart is pounding non stop since i picked up Alif's ring just now... my prayers to Allah... May our relationship blessed by Allah...

and of course..

can't wait going to work wearing the ring!
can't wait teaching Bodyjam, wearing the ring! hahah...

can't wait... can't wait...

my next post will be with the 'real ring' hor...

A better tomorrow

Have you ever had a situation arise where for what ever reason, you heard a voice at the back of your head.. "that's it! enough!"

yep... i encountered this recently few days back... my heart and mind just could not take it anymore... if X is very much happier, without me in the team.. so be it! i earned that position with respect... it was never self-proclaimed... i carried the responsibilities with pride and dignity... if you are too blind to see it.. if your heart is too cloudy to feel it.. if your brain is too small to digest it.. then so be it!!! pity you... you definitely not a good human being.. full stop! i don't want to have anything to do with you anymore... get away from my life... you are not qualified to even be part of it... go ahead and live your own life... have it your way... don't disturb me anymore... GO AWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i used to try to understand why you're behaving like this... but it didn't make any sense... Alif said that X feeds on my misery.... as hard as I can't accept the fact that there is a human being like that, well.. it makes more sense!! again.. so be it! my life doesn't evolve around you... nothing you'll ever do can bring misery to my little world...

I'm very much happy with my decision.... and it's for the best interest of ME!! yes... i think it's about time that i put myself beyond anything else... no point i'm keeping a part of an effort to make X understand what life means.. and just for the info... I AM RELIEVEDDDDDDDD!!!

ko benci aku?? ade mak kesah???