You love me, you love me not

It’s better to find someone who loves you rather than whom you love!!!

Heard that phrase before? Hmmm… I heard it over and over and over and over again… All of a sudden it keeps playing in my mind… do you all agree with that? I’ll expect almost all of us will say… Yes! Its true! If you stay with someone who loves you, than he/ she will be happier, and the chance of getting hurt is very thin… but, did any of you ever in that position? I mean either parties… being loved by someone but you cannot force yourself to love him/ her back or you love somebody so much yet not getting the same in return.. have you?

Well let me give you two situations. And maybe we can try to put ourselves in that person’s shoes and what would we react if we were in their position. Would we acted/reacted the same way?

Being loved by somebody
A falls in love with B so deeply. A always plans something for B, try everything to please B and do anything to get B’s attention. B notices the effort and decided to return A’s love. They ended up with a beautiful relationship, even though A is not really B kind of Mr/ Mrs Right. B appreciate A very much for the love and tries everything to make things right because B knows, A will do anything to make this relationship works. B slowly found a way to love A back for what he/she is. It all went well until C came… C has everything that B dream of and of course B had a crush in C. To make it complicated, surprisingly, he/she is not the only one. C in a way likes/loves B too… so for a while, A&B’s relationship turn sour as B realized that he/she didn’t really sincere in their relationship. It just happens that at that particular time, B has nobody else, and A is the only one who cares for him/her and treated B the way a lover do. So, at one time, B cannot lie to herself/himself anymore and finally told A that he/she cannot continue this relationship as it all based on compromised, not love. B left A and leads a happy life with C.

Loved somebody so much
Hmmm… guess what!?! It’s the same as the above, but this time you are A!! =D

What a cliché huh? Well… that’s life… so… who would you rather be? A or B? of course I think any of us would not want to be on neither side… That’s what I’m trying to say here… it doesn’t matter who loves who first… it is just as simple as, at the 1st place:
1. Are you in love?
2. Are you ready to sacrifice some things in your life to other person other than yourself?
3. Are you ready to start a long term commitment?
4. Are you ready to see yourself ‘sharing’ things with that person, physically and emotionally?

If all the 4 questions are answered, “YES”, so who loves who first doesn’t apply anymore because you are ready to move on!!! Take risk in life… that what makes it so precious… always expect the unexpected and the same time, do keep your feet to the ground… be realistic =)

This entry is totally dedicated to women/men which is nearly dying of ‘waiting’ for the Mr/ Ms Right to come to you… woiii come on!!! Make the first move!!! Life is short, and for us, girls…. Decent guys are getting fewer and fewer… you better take the opportunity to work things out… in this year of millennium, “perigi cari timba” doesn’t exist… this is about “perigi mencari contractor yg sesuai utk menimba” so that, the “perigi” won’t dry without any reason =D End of the day, you got nothing to lose. As for me, I’d prefer to go for the one whom I like and have a clear answer whether there is ‘hope’ or not between me and him. If its not, then I can issue another ITB (invitation to bid) to another contractor, he he…. ;-) At the same time, open your mind/heart and soul to other contractors nearby whom we didn’t wish to invite for the tender but yet, they are interested to bid… ok?

Da Launch!!!

A quick one... Had a blast with Jason, Tina and Ken last nite... the members were awesome!!! but me got knee pain again =P juz got back from SJMC, got one injection and MC. Doc gave me one hour to go back home before the medicine actually kicking in my system and i will fell asleep... he he... best tuh... now i have around half an hour more before i kaput... drop by ofis just to share the launch photos... xPeace05 like me in that outfit... so, taipan's launch, i'll wear da same thing lah... ahaks!

Before (makeup sume cantik lagi)


After (heh heh... all melted.. our clothes oso...)

Me with PLU

Oh well…. Tonight is the night… hope we can make it right… Bought new top yesterday… and thought of buying new pants also as my Nike pants doesn’t suit the top that well… and we don’t want to wear black tonight… here it goes again… my lunch time will be converted to shopping in Summit!!! Ahaks!!!

Enough of gym stuffs… time for my personal things…

Some time ago, Shirlyn wanted to introduce me to a friend of hers at her new office… She said his funny, kind and she said I would probably ‘click’ with him well… Shirlyn is one of my friends who knew about my past, lightning relationship with the Proton guy… haha… So, I know that she meant well when she wants me to date again… but you know wut happen… I received an email from her, saying that her friend actually does not have interest on girls… haiyoooo… as much as I love my Gay friends… that much of love turns to hate when I realized that there isn’t much guy left out there for us anymore… If there is, jahat la pulak… then how?!?!? sometimes its funny, and its also a very sad situation… Sad, pathetic, painful love songs really ‘click’ with me well lately… MORE ICE CREAM, MORE ICE CREAM plsssssssssssssss………….

Lia, my colleague, also wants to introduce me to her friend… well, no harm in making new friends right? Really want to go Karaoke with her, but this gym thingy always get in the way… *sigh* the timing always not right… tu namanya takde jodoh… he he..

It just… no hope means no heart break… better then hoping for something which is fake… fake from the start… and its all fake!!!! ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY!!!!

What I want from a man!!!

1. Who has a very strong stand in what he does (the right one lah…). He knows what he wants in his life, and he will work towards the aim…

2. The one who will fight for what/ whom he loves…

Nowadays, people always easily give up on the things… Take my-ex for example, he didn’t even try to fix the problem that we had (which I don’t even get to know what)… he runs away from it… and look for new girlfriend… I don’t blame him if he thinks that I’m not the one… but the thing that makes me ‘frust’ is… a man should be a man!!! He should have the guts to tell me straight to my face, “Leo, I don’t really love you, and I don’t think we will work out” hah!! Kan senang….

3. I’m the type… hmmm… people say, “perigi carik timba” he he…meaning, I will make the first move if I feel I’m attracted to someone… So, I like to be treated the same way… so man, please come and WOO me… don’t WOO each other.. =D

4. A man should have and realize his responsibility!! In any way…. (no elaboration on this… time for them to think… this will show whether he understand his responsibility or not…)

5. Humble (these kinda of man, I like….)

6. Good personality (hmmm.. really hard to define, but fair enough to say that he is on par with me… meaning, he understand what I’m saying/ doing and vice versa)

What I do not want in a man!!!
1. COWARD!! (hoh… really an a**hole lah… no need to be a man… go and change your gender)

2. Bad tempered (ini tarak bagus punya manusia… )

3. Super-duper ‘perasan bagus’ (people who always ‘perasan bagus’ always the ‘tak bagus’ one)

4. Control freak (this one really don’t have any confident lah… everything also want to control… u dun trust people, how do you expect people to trust u)

5. Smelly… (yuck yuck yuck… puke puke puke)

Ok done!!! Lagi byk I membebel, lagi pening kepala… now I’m back with the music… rompe rompe rompe!!! Till I see u again!!! Buh-bye….

One cute picture, for your digestion ;-)

FREE PUBLICITY

hiak... tomorrow is the big day in True Fitness... Jason, Tina, Ken and me hope that we can make the launch a very memorable one to members... as always, i love seeing my name on the board when there's a special theme class or wutever... so, couldn't resist the 'glamour' feel... he he he...



hmmmm... what to wear... sorry lah ye... i'll turn to a 'dumb blonde' once in awhile when it comes to launch, competition, demo... always need to get new things to add-up... doing latin track tomorrow... need something for the hair... this time around, we've decided to go with earth colours, i.e: green, brown, white.... hmm, how about just two leaves to cover my boobies... hiak!! anybody up to that? =)

Tribute to Mastura!!

Congratulations to my housemate, Siti Mastura Omar for her promotion to Senior Exec HR (i think..he he), Proton!!!

She loves pink so much, so da whole thing has to be pink kay....

Siti Mastura Omar (Mas), 26 yrs old... still single (any application to be her boyfriend sgt lah di alu-alukan)... loves MTV and Channel V so much.... but hates house chores, i.e: basuh baju, jemur baju and lipat baju... ahaks! Loves going to the salon and had manicure once in awhile... he he...

I personally thinks that she deserved that promotion... judging from her commitment to work... YOU GO GIRL!!! keep it up... remember, no more complain... tak larat aku ngan Ezzy nak dengar... she juz got back from Bangkok... finally, she got some time off from work... good for her... she had a blast there... i left one big chunk of important info, she loves to travel... and we share the same dream to go to Bora Bora Island, Tahiti... lets go there someday!!! woohoooo.........

apa lagi ye... hmmm... she's selling off her Kancil and most probably she's gonna buy Satria Neo... i didn't really agree, as my experience with Proton car... huh... u all know lah... giving her some thoughts of buying either Vios, Honda Civic or at least Hyundai getz... lets see lah ya...

Ok... off you go girl... May Allah bless you... Be grateful of what you have... and what you have will definitely be perfect for you ;-)

P/S: Bila mau belanja daa? At least, buffet kat Sheraton Subang...

My long lost Aunty

Last weekend, I had a visit from my aunty, Hasmah, who married an Australian, Uncle Mike, and practically lives in Australia... the last time I saw her was in 1992... I was 12 then... so, it has been almost 15 years.. Managed to get my mom to KL, together with my dad (nak ikut jugak) and my niece (baru abis UPSR, so want to tag along...)..

7th Sept
They arrived in KL, picked them up, and straight away went to see My Aunt at Regent Hotel... cry2 session, hug2 session... then, we had a very long nice warm talk until 3am in the morning =)

8th Sept
Went to KLCC with my dad and Uncle Mike... My mom n her sister spent their time on their own... get together at about 5pm and dragged them to a relative's house in USJ20... had dinner there and talk2 again until midnite...

9th Sept
Had lunch in another relative's house in Kelana Jaya (another uncle)... he managed to gather almost all our relatives who lives nearby and had another long session of talk2... vomit blood already... and i did fall asleep on the couch for an hour =) and it was raining cats and dogs... and saw on tv later, there was a bad flash flood in Masjid Jamek... hmmm.... so typical... later at nite, brought them to Sahmuri's satay...

10th Sept
Sent them to KLIA in the morning... again... cry2, hug2 session... got back home... brought my niece to Midvalley... got back home... help them pack... in the evening, of to KLIA again to send them... now, its time for me to cry alone... hu hu... sob sob sob...

I WANT ICE CREAM!!!! MORE MORE MORE!!!!

there goes my weekend... no gym, no work... just relatives and lots of driving =) so need to see movie... hmmm, talking about movie...

SOMEBODY OWES ME A MOVIE!!!!! (practically screaming in my cubical now)

promised my mum to bring her to sydney to pay my aunt a visit, either end of the year or early next year... we'll go there someday ya mum...